and the flood gates opened

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did-you-kno:

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Omfggggg story of my LIFE

i dont either, sometimes….

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toptumbles:

Elephant plays with a Galaxy Note

SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!! THIS IS WHY I LOVE ELEPHANTS

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i really needed to hear this.

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I really needed to read this.. I thought that my life was over when I accidentally found pics of A and his ex in his closet…

i’m glad that i managed to push myself..

but i wish that i could do it again…

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xxostevie:

love

 this is awesome.

I feel like I am losing focus. I feel like I am letting my life slip away. I feel like I am a failure. I feel like I can’t be relied on. I feel like I’m not good enough. I feel like I don’t have a future.

And I’m afraid that nothing is going to change, ever…

how empty you feel without someone..

fuckk i miss A so bad its killing me inside…

dot-raw:

拉花 Latte Art by Eat-My-Heart-Out 你吃,我看 on Flickr.

Time for a coffee

NEED

i want this dog. how could you NOT love that face?

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my biggest fear is that i am replaceable…

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

yea, most def

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

nooooo way

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?

i dont remember

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

i do all the time

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

my whole entire fucking family

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

“when i die young” always reminds me of john

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

flannel pajama pants, plaid button up shirt, grey fleece slippers, socks purple bra and black/pink lace underwear

8. How often do you listen to music?

every freaking day like its my job

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

o0o0… jeans i think. but i basically change into sweats the second i get home

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?

yea, i think so. i could be in a different city, or even a different country. we shall see!

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

a tad of both, but mostly social with antisocial tendencies

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

how about the only person i have ever kissed is A

13. What about ‘R’?

nope

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

yes, but poorly

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

yes. sooo much

16. Are you going out of town soon?

does a couple weeks count?

17. When was the last time you cried?

last night. hard.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?

yes. everyday :)

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

yes. to green please!

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?

yessiiirr

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

its been long because i worked so much, and i just want to sleep

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

yessss!

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?

yup. haha

24. What are you sitting on right now?

a couch/love seat

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

A does.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

i did. but now i could give two shits.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

technically Abi. But A was texting me, and i wasn’t responding…

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

ehhhh, kinda shorta not really

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

forever 21

30. Does anyone hate you?

maybe? prolly? 

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

hhaa you’re talking to a sxe girl

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

NO WAY! i hate scary movies!

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?

eww no.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

either junior year or the last year of the years T was dragging me along… 2009?

35. Did you have a dream last night?

prolly, but i dont remember it

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

just a tad ago.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

uhmmm its a strong possibility

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

oh i know they do :)

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

yup.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

oh god. yesterday was the worst. last night especially.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

yessir :)

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

if you mean hanging out as in working, then yes.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

yes :)

44. What’s the best part about school?

not being in it!

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

uhmm who doesnt?

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

not in school! and is this questionnaire for middle schoolers?

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

again, who doesn’t?

48. Were you single over the last summer?

for half of it i guess, but i was basically committed.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

oh god no. and i am so happy about it.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

nothing in particular

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?

NO WAY. i love him :)

52. Are you nice to everyone?

i try really hard to

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yup.

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

easily.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

im pretty good at masking them, yea

56. Do you think you like someone?

i dont like someone. i love someone.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?

nope.

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

uhmmmm either

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?

oohhhhh yea.

60. Do you hate anyone?

strongly dislike, yes.

61. How’s your heart?

physically, healthy. emotionally, good.

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

haha yea. those 3 years waiting for T.

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?

a lot. multiple times.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?

potentially.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

nope. lavender.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

i dont think so.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?

only when appropriate.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

nope, thank lord

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

my mom i think? if not, then A.

70. How do you look right now?

gross. tired. shitty.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

a couple people, yes.

72. Can you commit to one person?

thats all i want to do.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

yup. and i am lucky

74. Have you ever felt replaced?

sometimes yes, unfortunately.

75. Did you wake up cranky?

today? no, but i woke up a tad sad.

76. Are you a jealous person?

oh fuckkk yea.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

the only one i’ve been in, has been :)

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?

like, keeping in touch? a couple, sadly yes.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?

yea. i want to see A all the time.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

work.

81. Last person you cried in front of?

my mom in person. A over the phone.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?

quite a few actually

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?

i’m pretty sure that he is :)

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right

now?

prolly watching tv together or making out.

85. Are you over your past?

uhmmmm not really. some days i seem to be over it more than others.

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

oh yea. and shit got awky.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

a couple people, yea.

88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

ohhhh i would accept the presents. then tell him to get the fuck out because he’s a couple years late. then i would sell the gifts for profit.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

i would drag him in

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

naw

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?

i should hope so!

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

uhmm i know a Mike, but he doesn’t go by Michael.

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?

nope.

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

last january? nope. this january? yes. and its going gloriously :)

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

NOPE. complicated as fuckkk

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

i think he is hot as fuck.

97. Who do you have texts from?

a shit ton of people

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

i would be crushed on the inside, but i would encourage them to pursue the liking.

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

A is 3.5 years older than me. 

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

its just me

101. Ever kissed under fireworks?

ironically, my first kiss was near some.. sooo yes?

102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

every day :)

I loved that day on the beach with him…